I need more motivation. My best friend is getting married in September. We have been best friends for 18 years this year, which is a long time. Its almost my entire life. We have had our ups and downs, but we always come through it, and usually stronger than before. So at her wedding I am going to be a bridesmaid. I'm excited! However, that means I am going to be in a lot of photos, and wearing a beautiful purple dress. So now, I need to do everything I can to make sure I look good in that dress. We have until the beginning of July before we have to go for the fittings to have any alterations made. So I have 2 months to lose as much weight as I can, and keep it off. So, I am going to cut out photos of how I want to look - mainly from horse magazines, and stick them on the cupboards and fridge. I have written out a new meal plan, and I have made a list of everything we need for it for the fortnight. That way, hopefully I wont run out of things and end up buying take-away. I need to stick on it, and I've been finding it so hard. But I really want to do it, so hopefully I can get myself together.
Of course, I have other reasons for wanting to get motivated. I plan on saving for a horse as soon as I can drive, and so I can look at a wider range of four legged companions, weighing a lot less than now would be more than helpful. There are lots of other benefits, of course, but these are my main priorities and so need to scape together every shred of motivation I can muster. Two of my work colleagues go to a Slimming World group on Wednesday nights. I have considered returning and going to the sessions again, because if it would help me to stay on my diet and lose the weight, the weekly cost is worth it. However, I don't know if I want to go on my own. Last time I was going, I went with family. So to go on my own is a much bigger step, and one I'm not sure about yet. Something to think about, at least.
I've got another driving lesson tomorrow. I am quite excited, but I keep panicking when I think about it. Before when I had lessons, I didn't get the biting point thing. It was never explained, either helped out on the pedals by the instructor, or else he just said "there!" and I never got it on my own. My new instructor is great...very patient and understanding. I got the biting point and we stopped and moved off loads during the first lesson. But if I'm on my own and I go over the cockpit drill or anything in my head, I think about the biting point and panic. I guess it is something that only practise will help. Hopefully I'll be able to practise outside of lesson times with my dad. So for now, I'm just excited about my lesson. She said we would refresh what we did last time, and then go for a jaunt on the roads. Eek!
I've recently been hunting for a costume for the previously mentioned best friend's hen night in August. The bridesmaids are all helping plan it, and most of it is top secret. The theme, which she does know about, is "sexy masquerades". So basically, burlesque crossed with masquerades. Moulin Rouge with masks. How exciting? I think I have finally decided on an outfit, but I can't order it until I have been paid. Bad times. Once I decide on the final colour, I can pick a mask to go with it. I need to accessorize it with lots of lovely glamorous pretty things. I need to glamorize my outfit. I also need to find shoes. Damn....i forgot about shoes. This is likely to be a huge problem, as due to extremely weak ankles, I have issues with heels. So, burlesque sexy shoes, without heels....Hmmm.
On the accessories hand though, fake nails or at least tips are going to be an absolute yesYES! I bought some reduced false French nails with a little design on the tips yesterday, and put them on. You can wear them for a week and then you are supposed to take them off. They are fabulous. The design is a little black and silver butterfly with some silver glittery and black swirly butterfly dust. I love them....except they make typing a slight issue. Not going to be good if I am processing at work tomorrow. We are going out for lunch at work tomorrow. We processed the most packs ever in March - *highfive* and so are getting a treat from the company. We got the choice, and could have done anything, but due to some people not wanting to come to the more exciting things, we have decided on lunch on a work day so everyone can come. Then, for our work quarterly instead of going for the usual meal, we are going to the Comedy Club at the cinema to see some stand up. It's really different to what we usually have to do, so I am really looking forward to it.
My other half has finally booked himself in for his first tattoo. He wants a dragon design on his bicep, and has found the head of a dragon he loves. He is going to give that to the artist who will then just freehand the rest of the design onto his arm and then if he likes it, away they go. If not, they re-draw. I want another tattoo. I have promised myself that when I get down to my final target weight (I have a long way to go), I can have my other shoulder blade done. I designed my shoulder piece to be flipped and mirrored on my other shoulder blade, so I decided when I lose my weight that is my reward. I have kind of planned my next 4 tattoos, so now I just have to design them and then get the bottle to have them.
I've been toying a lot with the ideas of modification lately. I've debated dying my hair, more tattoos, and piercings. But overall, I have decided to hold off for now. Well, maybe I'll dye my hair. It's only going to go a natural colour (my natural colour) as I really regret my natural colour changing from dying it.
I am so impatient, I want everything now. I hate waiting!!
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